Boy. Does life happen! Can I get a witness from anyone who has a life that spirals out of control any given moment and then on the brink of a nervous breakdown, it settles back into the routine of “just chaos” that you’re accustomed to? Is it just me? Well if it is, that’s okay too, but if it’s not come along for the ride today as me and Jesus talk it out.
This morning it was just me talking. I really wanted the opportunity to talk to someone else. Mainly my husband. I really wanted the chance to get snarky and say something ugly. I was in the kitchen rehearsing it, he was in the living room oblivious to the wonderful plan I was hatching up in my head to let him have it. Why? Because he and I are both human. And it is absolutely the worst thing to be sometimes. You didn’t actually think I was going to tell you did you? Just imagine one of your human error times when you’re hatching up a plan to give someone a piece of your mind, and then imagine it ten times worse. Because mine probably was. I’m really human.
So as I was hatching this plan, I “ask” God to help me make it happen. I was praying for it! It never did. Not one time did David or God give m e the chance to make the air blue. And so I settled back into my chaos and turned to the Word of God to help me make sense of it all.
Since the starting of the Ridgeview News I have struggled. And I don’t mean, just a little. On every plain I’ve had a battle. Physically, I struggle with pain every day. Emotionally, not good at all. Professionally… I struggle with people accepting my work as worthy. Spiritually… I talk to God all day long. And sometimes I “allow” Him to talk to me. Anyone see a problem with that?
It’s like have a GPS but not bothering to turn it on. You can go places, but it may take you longer to get there, and truthfully you may never arrive at the right spot.
So on the verge of calamity, I turn my GPS on. God’s Powerful Spirit. I allow Him to talk to me. I know… good idea right?
Psalm 18:1-3 KJV
 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.  The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
Psalm is a song of praise in reference to 2 Samuel 22:1 when God had delivered him out of the hand of Saul. His greatest enemy of the time. It causes me to ask myself… perhaps you could ask yourself… What is your greatest enemy? For me it’s finances. It sucks the life out of me. It causes me angst and sadness. My Saul is the dollar bill. Or the five, ten or c-note. Which ever one I’m in need of. Perhaps that’s your Saul too. Or, maybe it’s health. That would be second on my list of frustrations… Probably should be first, but I don’t like dealing with it that well so I put it off until I’m lying flat on my back. This is indeed intense therapy today. But back to the scripture. David is praising God for his deliverance. It will come for me too. I have the utmost of faith. The problem is, sometimes fear is louder on than faith and that’s when I have a bad day.
Faith is a subtle feeling that always there But sometimes it gets drowned out by the noise of the world.
Psalm 18:4-19 KJV
 The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid.  The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me.  In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
Do you ever think about your words traveling to God’s ears.
Almighty God Himself listens to my heartaches and distress. He doesn’t send someone else to do His job. He takes care of me Himself. Do I give that kind of attention to Him or do I expect someone else to do my bidding with God for me. I see prayer requests on social media all the time. And they should be! Don’t misunderstand. We should make our petitions known to our brothers and sisters in Christ so that they can be a part of the Victory. But, conversations with God should be often and taken serious. After all, tell me who in this world of any real power allows us to bend their ear? If they did, we would. But we have someone so much greater than any human, we have God Himself who can speak our cares out of existence, and He is most often a last result. He is the “glass we break in case of emergency.” We don’t want anyone to think our life is that far out of control. So we wait to speak with God, when it’s absolutely necessary. I speak of myself clearly, perhaps you’re brighter than I.
Do you ever think about God getting angry on your behalf? David did.
7] Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.  There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mouth devoured: coals were kindled by it.  He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.  And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.  He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.  At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire.  The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire.  Yea, he sent out his arrows, and scattered them; and he shot out lightnings, and discomfited them.  Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.
Such poetic words and how they stir my soul!!! To think that God is so passionate about His people. Does He truly care for us that much? Would He have let His Son suffer on the cross if He didn’t?
God may not show that kind of ire over the petty things I’m going through today, but there is coming a day when everything this world has put God’s children through will cause His anger to show itself. For mankind my heart breaks. But for the wicked in this world I long for justice. And while it gives me no solace to fix my heartaches of today, I know God is righteous when He allow me to go through what I do, because it will create a better Shari. I won’t pretend I like it. I won’t even pretend that I’m not wishing for God to take me out of it, but I will be as David was and I will praise Him in the storm because I know there’s a clear day in my future.
Do you ever think about how much the Lord Delights in you?
 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.  He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.  They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay.  He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, because he delighted in me.
I must confess, that there are days when I wonder why anyone would care about me. I say that not to create pity for myself but just to say, I know how I fail God and man. so it’s not easy to understand why people truly care. And yet they do. The things of this earth that are drawing my mind away from God are too strong for me. I am so glad that my Lord brings me back into a place of delight as He did today by showing me these words that are so sweet to my soul.
God loves us. He loves us enough to allow His Son to die on a cross as the final sacrifice for mankind to allow nothin in this world to come between us and Him. But I allow it. And because of that I deny the Lord the only thing I can truly give Him. Me.